It’s Not About ME!

 Recently I’ve battled the thought of being associates with people who are close to people who I do not

**begins to search for a word*

Care for…

I believe that’s the correct terminology.

I don’t hate them… I don’t dislike them… I just don’t care for them…

To me… they’re just not essential to my environment and that’s ok.

No matter how I slice it, it’s not beneficial to my future.

I openly admit that sometimes I can over analyze things and in doing so… I side eye things that don’t necessarily require the side eye… at this time (that’s me doing it again lol)

Stay with me here.

So I realized I am associates with several people who are connected to people I don’t care for.

*skiiiirrrttt pump the breaks**

How the heck did that happen?

I mean some of these associates are actually cool people. I just don’t know how it happened.

Lately, I’ve been asking God to show me why certain people are being drawn to me. Why does this look like an uncomfortable situation? Like is it uncomfortable because I’m over analyzing it or is it because these people don’t have pure intentions?

The more I thought about it the more questions I had.

I realize God has a way of connecting me to people who He needs to get something through me to them and vice versa.

Even when I feel like “Are you sure it’s me that has to do this?” lol

It’s me that He calls.

Recently (and by recently I mean two weeks ago lol) we had Pastor Justin Marshall visit our church in our Pastors absence and he preached a good word but one of the parts that stood out is when he said:

“You have to learn how to connect to people that plug into where you’re going and not just where you are”

Check out the sermon here. Time marker for this is about 48:33- 50:07 (really you should watch the whole thing)

So that statement seemingly answered most of my questions.

Some (not all) of these associates are essential to where I am going. Where He is taking me.

I’ve already acknowledged that God has called me to Minister to Women. To help guide, lead, encourage them and etc.…

But in doing so, what I didn’t acknowledge is, that means I would have to connect to women that I essentially never would’ve thought about connecting with previously.

I can’t say “Lord prepare me to reach women…  and by women I mean all women except QRS and their partners TUV”

I mean I can but I’m certain that He will ignore me. And I would possibly prolong the work He is doing in and through me.

Simply because it’s not about me. It’s about what He needs to get through me.

Nothing God does in me will be comfortable.

In order for me to see more, I have to be stretched… while I’m being stretched I will be uncomfortable.

In my conversations with Him, I’ve been checked…

You know…. Checked as in I better get my mind right and come correct… as in the way only a Father can check His daughter…

He said to me “My child, it’s not about you and it’s not about what others think of you. They do not know who you are, more or less who I AM preparing you to be. It is solely your Job to answer my call and do as I have commanded you. Keep your eyes fixed on me.”

The word says

“For we are His workmanship [His own master work, a work of art], created in Christ Jesus [reborn from above—spiritually transformed, renewed, ready to be used] for good works, which God prepared [for us] beforehand [taking paths which He set], so that we would walk in them [living the good life which He prearranged and made ready for us].” – Ephesians 2:10 AMP.

*wipes forehead*

Glad we cleared that up!

Now, let me finish being about my Fathers business.


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